So I don't really have an embarassing story. Sorry. I mean I've been embarassed before, sure, but none of them really matter in the greater scheme of things. Like, it was embarassing to tell my best friend that I was back with my ex. It was embarassing to text something to the wrong groupchat. It was embarassing to go outside with my hair looking like that the other day. It was embarassing to admit I know nothing about that popular thing, and way too much about this niche thing I may aswell have made up. It was damn well embarassing to admit I was entirely alone. But when I really think about it, who cares?
So on second thought you might feel worse now. Or just confused. Which is understandable because I just yapped about a random, slightly existential topic.
So... Maybe you feel bad because you're anxious (me too bro, me too). IF SO, MAY I SUGGEST talking to someone about it? I know, I know, you've heard this said a hundred times, but as I said, we're wired to enjoy peoples company. Wether it's through a screen, or in person, just talk to someone. About ANYTHING. A new hyperfixation perhaps? Maybe a topic you love? A topic THEY love? Idk you're not a toddler you get it from here.
wait, what's that..? You can't do that BECAUSE of the anxiety? Yeah, fair. But you know the anxiety will mostly go away once you've done the big, daunting thing, right? Think of it like a hill. You hate hills. You have bad stamina, the sun is beating on you're back, and you'd rather turn and go home. But once you just get over that bit at the top, the other side is amazing. It's shaded, there's flowers, a BENCH, a corner shop or something. Basically, you get my half assed analogy. It will get better. If you wait until you're ready, you'll never be ready.